Repressed Memories;>
Sep. 28th, 2009 02:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mdehnersA friend's actions triggered memories that I'd put behind me many moons ago.....
Once Upon a Time, back when MTV was new I discovered the Wicca wasn't "The olde Religione" and hadn't discovered CR. A Spiritual friend told me that I was Unbalanced and needed to connect with the Masculine God-head and I had friends who were members of Metropolitan Community Church(well, actually, one was a Passtor;>). I started to go and got caught up in it all. The pastor of our particular church was from an Evangelical background and so there was an Energy much like or coven's Rites. I even had Experiences with Jesus just like I had with Diana. That actually planted the seeds of my leaving. I'd Experienced the Presence other Dieties as strongly as I had Jesus or Mary. It became harder and harder to Accept Christianity's "One True and Only" when there was no real differences in my experiences. Either, both were Delusions or both were Real. I chose the latter. This, of course added to my disconnect from fellow church-goers who appearantly found this "Get" not as "got" as they thought. I finally stopped going because I didn't wish to disturb their Beleifs with my Experiences. After all, a good Christian is Happy about you having a personal Experience with Jesus. Not so if you also have them as strongly with esp Dieties of a less MASCULINE Nature;>. What I really learned was how False my friendships were from Christians. While the majority of my Wiccan and Eclectic Wiccan(what they called pagans back then;>)friends stayed friends, as soon as I stopped going to church I was shunned. Folks wouldn't talk to me if they ran into me at the grocery. And this is a Christian denomination founded by Gays and Lesbians....
I basically floated in the Neutral Zone of "neage thought" until I discovered Celtic Reconstructionism in the mid to late 80's which got me closer to my Lifelong Path to Return to my Ancestor's God/desses. Sure, it's hard and lonly and few Understand what the bleep youre talking about but it's the only thing that fits my Soul. Any Beleif system that absolves you of your actions without you doing something for those you Hurt is Alien to my Nature. I Understand it's Attraction. Cleaning up your own messes is hard work and most folks would rather someone else do it for them. Also, most folks are not programmed to do well Solitary or in small groups. Christianity's "flocks" provide that Comfort no matter where you live...if you're Het.
Cheers,
Pat
Once Upon a Time, back when MTV was new I discovered the Wicca wasn't "The olde Religione" and hadn't discovered CR. A Spiritual friend told me that I was Unbalanced and needed to connect with the Masculine God-head and I had friends who were members of Metropolitan Community Church(well, actually, one was a Passtor;>). I started to go and got caught up in it all. The pastor of our particular church was from an Evangelical background and so there was an Energy much like or coven's Rites. I even had Experiences with Jesus just like I had with Diana. That actually planted the seeds of my leaving. I'd Experienced the Presence other Dieties as strongly as I had Jesus or Mary. It became harder and harder to Accept Christianity's "One True and Only" when there was no real differences in my experiences. Either, both were Delusions or both were Real. I chose the latter. This, of course added to my disconnect from fellow church-goers who appearantly found this "Get" not as "got" as they thought. I finally stopped going because I didn't wish to disturb their Beleifs with my Experiences. After all, a good Christian is Happy about you having a personal Experience with Jesus. Not so if you also have them as strongly with esp Dieties of a less MASCULINE Nature;>. What I really learned was how False my friendships were from Christians. While the majority of my Wiccan and Eclectic Wiccan(what they called pagans back then;>)friends stayed friends, as soon as I stopped going to church I was shunned. Folks wouldn't talk to me if they ran into me at the grocery. And this is a Christian denomination founded by Gays and Lesbians....
I basically floated in the Neutral Zone of "neage thought" until I discovered Celtic Reconstructionism in the mid to late 80's which got me closer to my Lifelong Path to Return to my Ancestor's God/desses. Sure, it's hard and lonly and few Understand what the bleep youre talking about but it's the only thing that fits my Soul. Any Beleif system that absolves you of your actions without you doing something for those you Hurt is Alien to my Nature. I Understand it's Attraction. Cleaning up your own messes is hard work and most folks would rather someone else do it for them. Also, most folks are not programmed to do well Solitary or in small groups. Christianity's "flocks" provide that Comfort no matter where you live...if you're Het.
Cheers,
Pat
