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mdehnersI didn't realize until today that I'd basically withdrawn from my Chronic Health/Pain groups the last couple of months. Once I realized it, the reason was pretty evident.....I didn't want to be a dick.
I've been "dealing" with Pain personally and professionally all my life so I know every person's Pain is VALID. I also know that depending how much Pain you've Experienced in your life, your idea of how bad it is varies as well. But it's still VALID for YOU.
That said, I HATED that objectively on all but one group(which deals which has a number of Cancer patients) I was the once worst off. I began to Feel anger at some of the posters that dominated the groups whose levels I wouldn't give a 4 basically taking them to bed(I do yard work at that level). And I didn't want to be one of those folks that have to "one up" others. So I stopped reading and posting.
I'm of two minds about continuing to post Health stuff here. One, it's my journal;>! But the other is I don't want to be seen as a Whiner or worse, an attention junkie. So this might be the last update I post on the subject:
Both me and my younger brother were born with spine deformities and have had Chronic Back Problems all our lives. Back "97" I had my worst and the MD diagnosed both Herniated disk AND Arthritis in both hips. I was also told that since I had hiv/aids Surgery was out and other than Physical Therapy I was going to just "deal". Once we moved to Florida THAT ended. About ten yrs ago I had another really bad episode and once again the same diagnosis except for what one would expect after a decade. So it was back to "Suck it up Buttercup". At the same time my brother had his finally herniate and got his spine fused. He's still pain free.
Finally the Chronic Back and Hip Pain has out done the Neuropathy Pain. We won't discuss Acute episodes.
I have an appt next Tuesday and maybe they can do Cortisone shots or something into my back and spine. If Chuck didn't need me I'd find a Dealer and stay Stone an Drunk till I died....
Fridhr,
Pat
I've been "dealing" with Pain personally and professionally all my life so I know every person's Pain is VALID. I also know that depending how much Pain you've Experienced in your life, your idea of how bad it is varies as well. But it's still VALID for YOU.
That said, I HATED that objectively on all but one group(which deals which has a number of Cancer patients) I was the once worst off. I began to Feel anger at some of the posters that dominated the groups whose levels I wouldn't give a 4 basically taking them to bed(I do yard work at that level). And I didn't want to be one of those folks that have to "one up" others. So I stopped reading and posting.
I'm of two minds about continuing to post Health stuff here. One, it's my journal;>! But the other is I don't want to be seen as a Whiner or worse, an attention junkie. So this might be the last update I post on the subject:
Both me and my younger brother were born with spine deformities and have had Chronic Back Problems all our lives. Back "97" I had my worst and the MD diagnosed both Herniated disk AND Arthritis in both hips. I was also told that since I had hiv/aids Surgery was out and other than Physical Therapy I was going to just "deal". Once we moved to Florida THAT ended. About ten yrs ago I had another really bad episode and once again the same diagnosis except for what one would expect after a decade. So it was back to "Suck it up Buttercup". At the same time my brother had his finally herniate and got his spine fused. He's still pain free.
Finally the Chronic Back and Hip Pain has out done the Neuropathy Pain. We won't discuss Acute episodes.
I have an appt next Tuesday and maybe they can do Cortisone shots or something into my back and spine. If Chuck didn't need me I'd find a Dealer and stay Stone an Drunk till I died....
Fridhr,
Pat
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Date: 2019-05-15 12:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-05-15 01:32 pm (UTC)Another is I'm going to check with my MD both about regular treatments and Medical Marijuana. I've been afraid to pursue this path because I need to be clearheaded for Chuck but I'm not any use to him curled up in bed either. The problem, of course is this is Florida. Medical Marijuana IS legal(ish) but when their are no LEGAL dispensaries, buying from a regular Underground Pharmacist is consequential...esp for those on Medicare. The "Good Thing" about it being Legalish is that if my MD prescribes it, I can't have my Medicare and SSDI "yanked" if it comes up in my quarterly test(in Florida it's mandatory for Medicare patients to get tested, though most don't realize that Urine test isn't JUST for Sugar and Ketones......
We'll see next week.
Fridhr(miss my old computer where it was easy to change keyboards),
Pat