A Call from "The Woeful One".....
Sep. 26th, 2005 10:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mdehnersOnce upon a time, Born to a Poor LDS family was a Son. The Child of a Disabled Hot-dog stuffer and a Beautician, He was Much Loved. The Center of His family, Symbolizing the Epitome of His Mother’s Existence and Hope for His Father’s eventual Godhood. He had(and has) Good Self-Esteem…
When Puberty Arrived, two Major Changes Shaped His Future…. Psychic Ability and Homosexuality. Since his Parent’s Beliefs were Contradictory to His Reality, He began a Search…finding “The Seth Material” and a Guru who saw in Him her chance to Raise a Great Spiritual Being, Perhaps even the Maitraya. As a teen He found Himself surrounded by doting housewives Amazed by his Powers. He left High School and with simply Personality has Worked His way up to Network Level Radio as an On-Air Personality and as a Producer…Today in TV. A PR Person for Civil Rights Groups and Peace Activist Orgs. He “Followed His Bliss”…..
The American Dream…No? Here, a Child Born with Little “Created His Own Reality”….Proving the Newage Affirmation….Right?
The Other Side isn’t as “Positive”. A Poor family Drained of Resources, Given out of Love, over and over and over again. Friends that Rescued, Bailed Out and Supported Him with funds that NEVER really were Repaid…repeatedly. A Guru who found her Dreams and Beliefs used against her. I could go on…
When I hear Newage Folks talk now, I Look at them Closely. Many of them Young, with Family and Friends to “Fall Back On” or Adults who have found a way to get Others to Pay for their “Bliss”. Many See the World and those In it as Resources. After all, that’s what “Abundance” means….Right?
In a way, I “Created” my own “Reality”. I Created on that Actions have Re-actions. That there ARE Consequences to ALL Actions….and I Live with this EVERY DAY. I HONESTLY BELIEVE that I’m a Better Person for this. I guess I have to, otherwise I’d just fall apart….
Another “Created” a “Reality” that there are only “Positive” re-actions and that ALL-THAT-IS(the world and everything and everyone in/on it…) are simply projections for a “Spiritually Evolved Being” to Manipulate for Their “Greater Good”. That Thought is Equal to Action and to “Reframe” an Event is to Change it in “Consensual Reality”…
It took the Threat of losing my Life to Realize this about my “Best Friend” of 15 yrs ago, 4 yrs ago. To save my Life, my Partner and I gave up pretty much everything we Loved and Owned to escape. We have a Life that we’ve made comfortable for ourselves far away and across a number of “Flowing Waters because there is no other choice….other than being miserable, of course.
This weekend He called and asked for our address to “send your Wedding tunics”. I gave it to him per e-mail. He told me in His response how His Life is. When we left he had become a Drug Dealer because the “Dot-Bomb” had taken away His high Income and “couldn’t live on what’s available”, “Embracing” the “Lifestyle” of a Crystal Dealer to Sex Addicts. Being Disabled, if this was found out, I’d lose my Disability and more IMPORTANTLY, the Meds that keep me Alive. This didn’t matter to Him. Neither did the Disruptions in our Lives from His “Customers”…who Generally do not Live a “9-to-5” Existence….
Well, he’s now in TV, settled down with a Street Performance Artist(chalk) and Happy. As Always, “Things Get Better and Better”…for Him.
“The Universe is Just”, my 1st Teacher said. “Just What?” is up to Interpretation….
Things are Confused here on Hummingbird Avenue…
Troth,
Pat
When Puberty Arrived, two Major Changes Shaped His Future…. Psychic Ability and Homosexuality. Since his Parent’s Beliefs were Contradictory to His Reality, He began a Search…finding “The Seth Material” and a Guru who saw in Him her chance to Raise a Great Spiritual Being, Perhaps even the Maitraya. As a teen He found Himself surrounded by doting housewives Amazed by his Powers. He left High School and with simply Personality has Worked His way up to Network Level Radio as an On-Air Personality and as a Producer…Today in TV. A PR Person for Civil Rights Groups and Peace Activist Orgs. He “Followed His Bliss”…..
The American Dream…No? Here, a Child Born with Little “Created His Own Reality”….Proving the Newage Affirmation….Right?
The Other Side isn’t as “Positive”. A Poor family Drained of Resources, Given out of Love, over and over and over again. Friends that Rescued, Bailed Out and Supported Him with funds that NEVER really were Repaid…repeatedly. A Guru who found her Dreams and Beliefs used against her. I could go on…
When I hear Newage Folks talk now, I Look at them Closely. Many of them Young, with Family and Friends to “Fall Back On” or Adults who have found a way to get Others to Pay for their “Bliss”. Many See the World and those In it as Resources. After all, that’s what “Abundance” means….Right?
In a way, I “Created” my own “Reality”. I Created on that Actions have Re-actions. That there ARE Consequences to ALL Actions….and I Live with this EVERY DAY. I HONESTLY BELIEVE that I’m a Better Person for this. I guess I have to, otherwise I’d just fall apart….
Another “Created” a “Reality” that there are only “Positive” re-actions and that ALL-THAT-IS(the world and everything and everyone in/on it…) are simply projections for a “Spiritually Evolved Being” to Manipulate for Their “Greater Good”. That Thought is Equal to Action and to “Reframe” an Event is to Change it in “Consensual Reality”…
It took the Threat of losing my Life to Realize this about my “Best Friend” of 15 yrs ago, 4 yrs ago. To save my Life, my Partner and I gave up pretty much everything we Loved and Owned to escape. We have a Life that we’ve made comfortable for ourselves far away and across a number of “Flowing Waters because there is no other choice….other than being miserable, of course.
This weekend He called and asked for our address to “send your Wedding tunics”. I gave it to him per e-mail. He told me in His response how His Life is. When we left he had become a Drug Dealer because the “Dot-Bomb” had taken away His high Income and “couldn’t live on what’s available”, “Embracing” the “Lifestyle” of a Crystal Dealer to Sex Addicts. Being Disabled, if this was found out, I’d lose my Disability and more IMPORTANTLY, the Meds that keep me Alive. This didn’t matter to Him. Neither did the Disruptions in our Lives from His “Customers”…who Generally do not Live a “9-to-5” Existence….
Well, he’s now in TV, settled down with a Street Performance Artist(chalk) and Happy. As Always, “Things Get Better and Better”…for Him.
“The Universe is Just”, my 1st Teacher said. “Just What?” is up to Interpretation….
Things are Confused here on Hummingbird Avenue…
Troth,
Pat
