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mdehnersI’ve found, much to my Annoyance that the Longer I am on my Path, the less time I’m Spending on It. What Used to be at least a Dedicated hr each Workday(longer on days off…) has shrunk to maybe 10 minutes tops. It’s easier to let Life and Family “Distract” me. Every time I’ve tried to get back on course, I lose it.
Part of it is that it’s not “New” and, like many folks “Bright and Shiny” are attractive, whether it be Objects or Concepts. What Annoys me the most is that when I began my “Journey Home”, I Knew folks who’s entire Spirituality was Built about Reading, Studying and Practicing from a handful on Manuscripts. Maybe that’s part of it. Too much Info available, though Tertiary Sources tend to rehash the same-O, same-O.
I Know I can “Play” the “I still do more than ___” card but that’s not the Point. I’m not doing my Best and that’s what Pisses me off. I Know one thing that Used to help is having a routine, building/digging a Spiritual “Rut”. It’s hard when the Household routine changes every week. The Animals get all stirred up and it’s like Meditating with 3 Monks with Bamboo rods some days;>! It’s also hard to focus when your spouse is Venting about their Workday. What’s ON or OE for “Lazy, Backstabbing Bitches”;>?
I guess when the main Point of Life is to Try and KEEP Trying. A longhouse is built Ultimately one piece at a time anyway. While we’d all Like it to get done ASAP, the Important thing Ultimately is that it gets Built…..
Troth,
Pat
Part of it is that it’s not “New” and, like many folks “Bright and Shiny” are attractive, whether it be Objects or Concepts. What Annoys me the most is that when I began my “Journey Home”, I Knew folks who’s entire Spirituality was Built about Reading, Studying and Practicing from a handful on Manuscripts. Maybe that’s part of it. Too much Info available, though Tertiary Sources tend to rehash the same-O, same-O.
I Know I can “Play” the “I still do more than ___” card but that’s not the Point. I’m not doing my Best and that’s what Pisses me off. I Know one thing that Used to help is having a routine, building/digging a Spiritual “Rut”. It’s hard when the Household routine changes every week. The Animals get all stirred up and it’s like Meditating with 3 Monks with Bamboo rods some days;>! It’s also hard to focus when your spouse is Venting about their Workday. What’s ON or OE for “Lazy, Backstabbing Bitches”;>?
I guess when the main Point of Life is to Try and KEEP Trying. A longhouse is built Ultimately one piece at a time anyway. While we’d all Like it to get done ASAP, the Important thing Ultimately is that it gets Built…..
Troth,
Pat
