The Algebra of Suffering....
Jul. 14th, 2013 11:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mdehnersI have to remind myself ever so often that an Individual's Pain is Their Pain, no matter what it would be to me...but at times that can be HARD.
I don't "do" support groups OR online heath "communities" anymore because it's hard for me to find Compassion for those who take themselves basically to their "deathbed" for what I would consider a Good Day...and consider what I go through Equal to what they do. A big clue? If you can be "cured" by an Herb, Chant or Exercise, it wasn't that big. I remind myself that I've DECADES of learning to "deal" under my belt and they don't but since many are, well a bunch of self-absorbed fukwads, I find my "Higher Nature" limited.
I was once told that all I've gone through and still go through are "Blessings" because I can go on with Living where others would be bedridden or just kill themselves. You know, that didn't seem much of a Complement to me....
It's hard to keep Fighting when that's the sort of "reward" for it.
Well, other than making sure Chuck's SAFE. If he Passes before me, I'm going Comfort Measures ONLY. It'd be nice just not having to do breathing exercises EVERY FRIKK'N MORNING to keep me from hurling my AM meds for a change;>.....
Cheers,
Pat
I don't "do" support groups OR online heath "communities" anymore because it's hard for me to find Compassion for those who take themselves basically to their "deathbed" for what I would consider a Good Day...and consider what I go through Equal to what they do. A big clue? If you can be "cured" by an Herb, Chant or Exercise, it wasn't that big. I remind myself that I've DECADES of learning to "deal" under my belt and they don't but since many are, well a bunch of self-absorbed fukwads, I find my "Higher Nature" limited.
I was once told that all I've gone through and still go through are "Blessings" because I can go on with Living where others would be bedridden or just kill themselves. You know, that didn't seem much of a Complement to me....
It's hard to keep Fighting when that's the sort of "reward" for it.
Well, other than making sure Chuck's SAFE. If he Passes before me, I'm going Comfort Measures ONLY. It'd be nice just not having to do breathing exercises EVERY FRIKK'N MORNING to keep me from hurling my AM meds for a change;>.....
Cheers,
Pat
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Date: 2013-07-14 06:11 pm (UTC)Cheers,
Pat