Vent.......
Sep. 14th, 2021 04:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mdehnersIt's been a couple of weeks and I'm sort of able to post this. Apologies for the mess. Let's put it this way; I now know the true meaning of "Triggered".....
I was at my new MD and I gave her the papers to get a Handicapped placard. She looked at me and said that Tennessee didn't have a lot of Handicapped Parking and it should be used ONLY for those who REALLY NEED IT. I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach. I think she realized she hurt me by the "Oh Crap!" look on her face. I EXPLAINED that the REASON that I ONLY used a cane was that Parking was in front of the door and the Waiting room on the other side of that door. Add in that ALL the Exam Rooms are at the MOST 40 steps on the other door and I'd never thought I needed to PROVE how Disabled I was after going on SSDI FOR Mobility AND AIDS I never thought I'd needed to. She sort of apologized by telling me that she'd do it if my Pain MD DOESN'T.
I was Driving home shaking with a combo of Anger and Despair because I'd been though this before....
Back when I lived in the Bay Area I was ALWAYS getting crap. Either I was "Too young to need the Handicapped ____" or, from the "Crunchy" community since I wasn't "bitching" 24/7 about my Handicaps that I'd "Overcome" mine and didn't "Need it". And don't get me started on the Pagan Community specifically. After a particularly insulting treatment at 'Ancient Ways' I NEVER went to another Pagan gathering in California. Thankfully, The Heathen community(which had a number of Vets and understood). It was like going back again and fighting for what sometimes IMMHO much less Handicapped get easily simply because they make sure everyone in visual and auditory range knows how bad they have it.
Well, I've learned my lesson. Doing what the docs and therapists tell you to do AND not being a shite isn't enough. I don't go to the garbage can without my walker anymore. And my upcoming appts? Get ready for the Whiney Queen on her Pitty Pot. If that's what I need to do to get what I got AUTOMATICLLY in bloody FLORIDA 2 decades ago I will.
It'll be a Vintage Whine;>!
Cheers,
Pat
I was at my new MD and I gave her the papers to get a Handicapped placard. She looked at me and said that Tennessee didn't have a lot of Handicapped Parking and it should be used ONLY for those who REALLY NEED IT. I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach. I think she realized she hurt me by the "Oh Crap!" look on her face. I EXPLAINED that the REASON that I ONLY used a cane was that Parking was in front of the door and the Waiting room on the other side of that door. Add in that ALL the Exam Rooms are at the MOST 40 steps on the other door and I'd never thought I needed to PROVE how Disabled I was after going on SSDI FOR Mobility AND AIDS I never thought I'd needed to. She sort of apologized by telling me that she'd do it if my Pain MD DOESN'T.
I was Driving home shaking with a combo of Anger and Despair because I'd been though this before....
Back when I lived in the Bay Area I was ALWAYS getting crap. Either I was "Too young to need the Handicapped ____" or, from the "Crunchy" community since I wasn't "bitching" 24/7 about my Handicaps that I'd "Overcome" mine and didn't "Need it". And don't get me started on the Pagan Community specifically. After a particularly insulting treatment at 'Ancient Ways' I NEVER went to another Pagan gathering in California. Thankfully, The Heathen community(which had a number of Vets and understood). It was like going back again and fighting for what sometimes IMMHO much less Handicapped get easily simply because they make sure everyone in visual and auditory range knows how bad they have it.
Well, I've learned my lesson. Doing what the docs and therapists tell you to do AND not being a shite isn't enough. I don't go to the garbage can without my walker anymore. And my upcoming appts? Get ready for the Whiney Queen on her Pitty Pot. If that's what I need to do to get what I got AUTOMATICLLY in bloody FLORIDA 2 decades ago I will.
It'll be a Vintage Whine;>!
Cheers,
Pat
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Date: 2021-09-14 11:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-17 07:04 pm (UTC)Love,
Pat
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Date: 2021-09-17 10:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-15 02:29 am (UTC)Yeah, I don't go to outdoor pagan gigs. I was 33 when I got disabled, and the crap I'd "overhear" was just shit, including that I had "bad energy" because I would get tired and cranky when it took extra effort to move. Now that the community is getting older some folks have had to uh... revise... their outlook on disabilities.
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Date: 2021-09-17 07:07 pm (UTC)Cheers,
Pat